night terrors

I need peace of mind
 both from the now and from the earlier
let me rest and dream of nothing
that way when i wake up ill look forward to everything
let my conscience breath again
let me have a blank slate
free from the pains of day to day
when my eyes shut and close
let no name nor face arrive
so that i may rest in peace tonight

Out for a run

I want to run far away from your voice
run to place where your notes cannot find me
leave the ground beneath my feet until i reach the clouds over the ocean
maybe then i can find peace and quiet
i want to run away from your face and your laughter
because now its sound is only a dagger
and its cutting deep within me killing me softly
i tried to tie you name to my grace
but then i fell flat on face
blood scattered all around like the dreams that i used to have
look now how they drown
 That's why i now try to make my escape to another place
far away from that face, which now holds my dreams captive
i need to feel the air of freedom hit me like train
take out the breath in me so i can breathe again
I don;t want to curse the day we met
 but i cant kiss the floor any more beneath your steps
Because you know i would give all my blood to make you happy
only now i know that i would be dead and you would be unloving
because i don't think that my sacrifice would even matter
its not like you couldn't replace ever faster
so this is a good bye I've written in sand and stone
so you will never see it  meanwhile ill be gone.